contentment...
Why is it i have so many things in this world and still feel something missing?
Why is it i am surrounded by so many loved ones and still feel lonely?
I feel myself stripped naked writing these down.
Are these just passing thoughts or have i always felt them simmering in me?
These feelings. Never over-the-top. Yet its omnipresence knocks at my consciousness, every once in a while.
Is it normal to feel this way?
I enjoy solitude. Loads of it. I need a lot of time and space for myself. But there are times when loneliness creeps in unknowingly.
Sometimes, i'm confused even as to whether i'm enjoying the solo flight.
Again, is this normal?
Will this gap be filled by a special someone?
But if you're with someone because you're lonely, i don't think that someone can fill that gap. Momentarily, yes. But when the novelty wears off, loneliness steps in again.
Are you with someone because you're lonely and you need someone to take it away (if that's ever possible)?
Or is it because you truly enjoy the person's company?
But then again, is there anything wrong being with someone simply because you're lonely?
These questions hound me all the time. Maybe it's because i want to seek truth in myself. Maybe it's because i'm bloody too free and think too much into non-existent issues.
Issues that nobody else bothers to tink about. Simply because you can never seek answers to them, or perhaps they are too inane for thought anyway.
Is the answer simply "contentment"?
But isn't contentment something that everyone's hankering after but never fail to grasp?
Am i normal?!?!