One Step Forward Without Two Steps Back...

When you're working towards something you want so badly, it is hardly any trouble the hassles you have to go through to get it done. I just sent out my first job application in almost 4 years. Due to some technical glitches, I took forever to send out the application. But when it was done, the sheer satisfaction i got was much better than anything i have experienced recently.
One step closer to a new life, a life that I've waited almost 3 years for. Now that my bond is finally ending in 6 months' time, everything i do is filled with so much hope, anticipation and excitement. I've never felt like this in a long time. Yes, i really couldn't wait for it to end. People once said things would get better in your second and third year, i thought it would be true. But that did not happen. It was one bad year after another.
Once again, I feel so alive. Inching closer to what i used to be. Happy and spirited. Hopefully, i can get my creativity back too. Think i lost it with the job too.
I want everything back!! And I have this feeling that i will.
But somehow, much as i gripe about the job, i am thankful for it. I made some amazing friends in this job and it made me realise how much i treasure the freedom to have fun. I think i just cannot do without it. Even when i'm 80. So I'm just going to embrace life my way, the way I'm born to enjoy it. In the most fun way. Yes, even when I'm 80.
My path is getting so much clearer, what i want and what i don't. I know life is all about searching. And i guess that's what i appreciate about getting older. The older I am, the clearer the road.
Life is beautiful.