When the going gets tough...

When the going gets tough, the tough gets going...around the school searching for cheesecake. During my chemistry class today, i had the sudden craving for cheesecake. That's when i realised that i've not been getting my regular dose of pastries. Yes, the linchpin in accounting for my sanity and psychological well-being. (Wah, so serious huh?!) So lunch was a chicken mayonnaise sandwich and new york cheesecake at Coffee Club in school. Not exactly heavenly but good enough to make me go "Ommm..." at that first bite.

Strangely, though i had so many things on my plate for the past week, i don't feel an ounce of stress. It seems as though i'm a computer with a list of task to finish, after prioritizing, set out to finish all of them. Of course, it might be that school work is not in full swing yet. After all, for my first two months, i tackled only five modules. Now, it's 10. (10 x average 2 assignments per subject, I'm in for yet another roller coaster ride!)

Chem test on Tues was bad. 5 questions in 2 hrs. I didn't know how to do some of them but I don't think i'll fail. Getting stuck on my first question threw me into a flux of confusion and anxiety. But of course, composure found its way subsequently. Phew! Crossing my fingers, all ten of them. Surely the lecturers should let me pass for my effort!? i woke up at 6 plus in the morning to study that day! Haha..

Another test on coming Tues and music theory exam next Saturday, I'd have paid my dues. Yay! Yay! Yay! Why did i ever land myself in shit, rushing around like a mad woman, I wonder. But seriously, there's no better time to do what i need and want to do. I'll probably fail my theory exam, but i'll just take it for the experience. Aiy, i'll just try my best. This time, I'll cross my fingers and toes, all 20 of them, and hope for the best. I might not pass, but i do feel that i've achieved what i want -- to learn music composition. Look out for my first music composition soon. Haha.

Went jogging today. I needed time-out after a very packed week. And the most time-efficient "playing hard" activity after "working hard" was jogging. Yeah, i needed to compensate for my lack of social life by doing something that would make me feel alive. I'm just not the kind who can work without play. (But of cos, the converse is never true. Haha.) The orangy skyline was beautiful. Top that up with a thin crescent moon and music on the go. They certainly went a long way to gratifying my rather-deficient state of being presently.

One week to freedom. =). I certainly hope my tactic of delayed gratification will make me stay focused and look forward to my day of freedom and fun.